Here are the facts…  As of January 2008 my brain cancer is recurrent and I am now going through chemo therapy.

  I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God has ordered and numbered my exact days from the beginning of time.  He has set them, and He is in absolute control.  Though I go to doctors for care and treatment, it is done with the absolute understanding of my heart that they cannot add even one minute to the days that God foreordained as the span of my life.  Likewise, Satan himself cannot steal one day from my life.  It is not possible.  I am totally and completely in the loving hands of the Sovereign Creator of the universe and my soul is in the care of His Glorious Son who gave HIS life that I might live eternally.  Truly, 'It is Well With My Soul.'  Whether it be through my healing or sickness, whether strength or weakness, I pray that Christ is glorified.

  We’re all living on death row, after all.  Some of us are just privileged to be more consistently aware of that than others.

  It is my prayer for each of you that you will know and receive the absolute love of Jesus Christ, being born-again and forgiven, cleansed of sin, and then, that you will walk closely to your Savior, Jesus Christ, growing in the grace and knowledge of Him who died for you… that it will be 'well with your soul' no matter what storms of life may rage your way… that your hearts will be kept in perfect peace.  Mine is.

  I have no complaint against my Savior.  I don’t ask 'Why me?' Why NOT me?  Paul called suffering 'fellowship' with Christ.  If I can fellowship more closely with my Savior though trial and weakness, than through blessing and strength, should I complain?

Bonnie Laughlin